Smokey Joe

"it terrifies me"

sung by Tori as Pip, in a red dress. falling on the floor, singing in a hoarse voice.

Something breaks inside me each time I listen to her, since the concert.
I must be going a slight bit mad. I used to call this "moonlightning" - being repelled by something you love.

my world is turning..not upside down but inside out. The colours are changing in a grotesque way. I am tired, and have the little masochist satisfaction of working myself to exhaustion.

Something must change here otherwise I will collapse.